Why do you all come to me with your stupid boy problems expecting answers and wishing you were like me. Bullshit you would hate being me. Watching everyone fall in love around you after he ate your heart is the worst. You say you wish you could get away from the guys but do you want to be stuck in your room blogging to zero followers while your best friends are out with their guy friends and people that look at them like they are their everything longing for someone to look at you with such passion and desire. It sucks.. It sucks ass and no one cares or believes you. Just because i don't have to deal with guys and their problems I still have shit to deal with like my fucked up family and bitches spreading rumors about me. Its not easy. I am called a whore anyway. I would rather be called a whore and have guy friends then be called a whore and never been kissed because that worse. Its the reminder that they are taunting you for what you know you can never be but you wish you could. Then there is the whole idea that a a sophomore has never been kissed before? OH., she must be a lesbian so lets spread that rumor and ruin any chances she had with guys. I am not a lesbian, not that I have a problem with homosexuals you know you love who you love dont judge, but I don't think its fair that people make assumptions. Wanna know why I am single?
Because I'm chubby, sensitive, easily hurt, not a attractive as my friends, quiet, shy, smart, worrisome, careful, caution, straight edge (no smoking, no drugs, no drinking.) So what. I am not going to change you because you want to be with me. I am not going to judge you, I'm not like that. What I will do is actually give a damn about you and not just date you for a specific reason (body, hair, etc.) SO WHAT.
The last person who convinced me I wasn't wrong for being how I am lied a lot. Maybe I am wrong. Maybe I should become a stereotype and wear risque outfit and become a cheerleader and stop eating. Or I could diet (aka eat salad once a day.) Sorry that doesn't work for me. I have a better idea. Why don't you all suck my dick and I will be happy with what I am, who I am, and who I want to be. I may not be happy with my body or the way I act sometimes but I am not ruining my life to get with a guy.
And btw. I wouldn't cry at a party because no one would hook up with me where everyone was drunk but still had enough common sense to not do it. :)
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